it had started to rain, but we didnt care
every word that was spoken held onto the air
i have over come my life style of doing nothing at all.

i work a part time job and go to school full time.

i make time for music, chris, and britta.

but then when i see that happy couple that is smiling and laughing and holding hands i can only think that they aren't doing the whole highschool thing they are real and they love each other and will marry each other and live in a loft in downtown brooklyn playing the moog and acoustic together. because thats what i want more than anything. but i have to make it out of highschool alive to reach my goals.

i work today tomorrow and all weekend. closing every day with girls that talk about who they had sex with that week and how many ounces they smoked and how many times they got drunk. i laugh with them. but for different reasons.

i've been wearing make up lately. it makes me feel pretty.

i'm shallow.

< 3:26 p.m. on 2002-10-02 >