it had started to rain, but we didnt care
every word that was spoken held onto the air
on the way home i told my mom i was going to drive the car into something because i want to die.
she started to yell at me and she said commiting suicide is a 'chicken shit' way to end it.
she told me to wait. until i'm 17, 18, 19 older...
but thats what she has been saying since she found out i hated my life and everyone in it.
i've been waiting for 'it to get better' for four years.
and not a day has passed by when the words 'i want to die' don't scroll through my head.
she said 'well its taken you four years'
so i said 'alright'
and she tryed to cover up what she said...how she said 'go ahead' and everything else.