it had started to rain, but we didnt care
every word that was spoken held onto the air
i decided not to take my medicine today. i decided that i needed to sort things out. and the only way to do so is to not balance my chemicals. whatever the outcome may be. it hasen't been bad at all. i'm finally thinking on the right track. all by myself. i took a bath today. i fell a million times. i just laughed at myself and kept bathing. and as of now i'm talking to my old/new friends. i couldn't be more excited. i just wish i could tell him what i wrote down this morning.

...i hope THAT comes out good too. i'm nervous

< 6:51 p.m. on 2002-06-12 >